i don't understand why we keep doing this.

fight. i go to toilets to pretend to pee and cry in silence/go to bed and cry facing away from him.

go out into the living room/wake up the next day

and we're all good again.

wtf is this shit.

i don't know how long i can do this.

games

too old for this shit. last night was ridiculous. ridiculously good and bad.

you kept coming up to me and telling me you love me. and no, i dont want to hear this shit.

i came all the way just to see you. but what did you do? absolutely fuck all. at the end, you went into your best mate's room while he's having sex. and you apparently just laid there and then maybe perhaps had a 3 or 4some. wtf.

i was so disgusted. it's so disrespectful.

i dont want to see you again.

or do i?