w t h

Most times, I just feel like I'm the only person in the friendship who ever does anyone. The only person who tries to keep the thread alive by writing, e-mailing, one time, even going to her place to hand deliver to letter to be told she's not home and not heard anything since.

I don't give a fuck anymore. And yes, it makes me sad. Very, very sad to know that I pretty much won't be able to find and have any friends, real friends. Am I the only person feeling this way?

my mantra for life

I FUCKING HATE PEOPLE. WHY DO I ALWAYS GET MYSELF INTO SITUATIONS WHERE I AM ALWAYS THE PERSON WHO GETS HURT. 

DON'T EVEN SEE THE POINT OF ANYTHING ANYMORE. SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO CRAWL INTO A HOLE AND DIE. FUCK EVERYONE. FUCK ME.

And I realized that I'm really all alone.

No family, no Christine, no Eunbi.

And this is all there is.

crossroads.

  At this point of my life, I'm 24 and I've ZERO clue of what I'm going to do career wise. I'm now working in 2 casual jobs, looking for full time work. I've a degree which you know what? I don't even give a shit about. I only went to uni because my parents wanted me to, because it felt like a supposed natural progression. In the end, what was the damn point?

  I realized our parents' way of thinking are stuck in this paradigm where having a degree is everything but it is not, it was back in their times, back in our grandparents' time where having a degree means you're guaranteed to have a well-paid job but at our age and now, having a degree means fuck all.

  Sometimes, I don't even know why I care when everything comes to an end anyways.

Today's wrist candy

Splurge or Steal

One Teaspoon Black Lagoon Dress $169.95

Keepsake Borrowed Heart Dress $109