let it be.

Featuring what I've bought (mostly!)  in the last two weeks.

I definitely need to clean and reorganize my closet because I can't find anything to wear and everything is just in a pile of mess! 

In other news, the last couple of weeks has been nothing less than tumultuous. I've always been acutely aware of my issues and right now, I'm stuck in a limbo, a crossroad because I'm really unsure how to deal with them. I know I'm not psychologically unstable but I don't know how long I can continue hurting and being extremely spiteful the people I love the most every time they do or say anything that feel remotely hurtful. I just feel the need to get back at them because I feel very unjustly treated. Maybe it's a way for me to make people feel as much gut wrenching pain as I felt so long ago. I'm definitely terrified to seek help and spill everything and anything to one person because it's unnatural, and so, so, so difficult for me to say anything without choking up or being defensive.

To be honest, I doubt I'm going to do anything about it because I'm just going to leave it in a corner, forget about it for a while and let it take control all over again.