road to nowhere

 

I always thought if I ran away from people, it meant I was running away from my problems.

I realized now, I was only trying to run away from myself.

But how can you run away from yourself?

motivation

 

I want her stomach.

I'm giving myself to June.

2.5kgs more to lose till end of Feb.

messy messy christmas eve

Had an eventful Christmas Eve.

Got fucked up.

Nothing good came out except for a few hours of escape and embarrassing myself.

Why am I so messed up?

Kindergarden on repeat

Last night, they had a fight and she was telling me how none of her best friends and family are not here. She cried and she cried but they made up at the end.

But what about me? My best friends are literally in two different continents from me. I've not seen one for about 3.5 years. I don't speak to my dad anymore. And I'm being a big bitch to everyone because I don't want to be friends with anyone because I feel so unlikeable and I just can't forgive and forget. One strike and you're out forever.

I am now back to feeling really, really, really down. Feeling nothing was slightly better.

Only to me

Once again, I failed the test and I've to repeat for the 4th time.

It only reminds me of how weak I'm and makes me feel even more shit about myself.

Been craving nothing but chocolate. Think my body is trying to seek some sort of happiness.

And fuck you all, Melbourne public transport.

I hate you, yarra trams.

I hate you, metro

I HATE YOU, TERRY MULDER! YOU'RE DOING A SHIT JOB.

I got trapped behind a night rider door and the dick head of a driver didn't even care.

Thank fucking god, I somehow managed to slip out but now, my back is very sore.

I feel stupid for not taking down the driver's name and bus license.

At least, I got these to look forward to.

Outfit du Jour

Trying my best to smile but everyone is catching on.

Shoes I wore

 

ps. will take a better picture of clothes worn later. Blurry effect was intended.

It's a sickness

I bought three dresses, to be fair one is for my sister.

I had to stash them right at the back of the closet to hide it from my partner.

btw, Sportsgirl has 20% off today. 

AA sale 2 for 1.

Self control?

None.