Just bought (finally found one!!)

 

Drinking too much

Eating

Will buy

credits - sequin t-shirt, gold collar & spike bracelet: google

I'm feeling a change

I feel quite pround of myself today. I'm the kind of person who says "I'll go on a healthy diet, run tomorrow, etc" but never does. But guess who woke up at 7.30 this morning to run? I'm going to start on running for 1.5minutes (attempted 2 minutes today. Does not work) and walk for 45 seconds and repeat x 4 or until I exercise for 30minutes depending on how my stamina goes.

Food for today as goes.
Breakfast: Peanut butter & jelly on pumpkin seed bread
Work lunch (that I made): Stir fried round beans, snow peas and bacon with carrots, broccoli & red peppers
Dinner: Undecided

illusions, kissing the stars.

I see myself as a realist, a cynic. Very blunt, connected with reality. What you see is what you get. I'm open and I rarely hide my feelings and thoughts but at the same time, I feel like I'm absolutely crazy. Crazy in a bad way. Crazy that I think I'm illusioned with life. I go up and I go down. At any moment, I can just go spirally down and just downright hate everyone. I don't feel like I've any friends. I feel like almost everyone is fake. All that phoniness. I can't stand it. I don't "hang out" with anyone. All I do is work and go home and when I do go out, all I do is get smashed, black out or be off my face. Even when I'm fucked and supposedly loving everyone, I feel noone loves me back. Why do I bother giving when noone returns. Sometimes I let it go, sometimes I get just so angry.

What is going on?

On a temporry shopping ban for a month or how much longer I can do due to an unexpected expenditure that cost me $613 :( Work has been quiet as well = cut shifts

Hopefully, if I get the urge to buy anything, I'll just open 1 parcel to curb the urge. So these will be left unopened until emergency arises.

2012 Goals

Long Term
♥ Save $10 000 by end of Dec 2012
♥ Attempt a back bend from standing
♥ Front splits (both sides!)
♥ Shoulder mount
♥ Buy a residential property
♥ Be able to run 15 minutes without stopping
♥ Weigh 55/56kgs

Short Term
♥ Get my wisdom teeth out
♥ Visit my parents
♥ Work in a full time job